I’m back in NC until the 30th, and then I’ll be headed back to Alaska until further notice, SO! Let’s get together and chill!
I was really hoping for my last week here before break to be great, but it’s probably been the worst since I got here.
I’ve been upset and stressed out of my mind, and it’s physically impacting me. I feel so sick to my stomach at random times, completely unpredictable, and I can’t focus and study for my damn finals. This is bad.
I have so much shit to do this week. Study, finals, pack, work out stuff here before I leave. There’s so much more. I’m really hoping I don’t have a panic attack or get sick because I’m getting too worn down with this.
I really need to relax and think about Sunday. I’m going home. But shit, I can’t get everything that’s happened and everything I have to do off of my mind. And now I’ve got another added stresser with stupid, pointless, and unfair worry about what’s going to happen over Christmas break. I can’t help but cry. Seriously, this is a huge problem and it’s really tearing away at me more than I want to realize or admit.
I feel like I’m lost. And I don’t feel like I can be as direct about it because I feel embarrassed and stupid about how I feel.
Good God. I’m so conflicted.
Watching the tide come in.
Literally, I’m not exaggerating, 5 minutes later, this entire area where I was sitting was underwater.
I love Beluga Point.